Author Archives: John

WATER & ELECTRICITY

 

Innocent enough: the service pole
holding two hundred and twenty volts
above the ground to the house,
end of the line for electric power
and all its surges, to be replaced
by men and three huge trucks
with hydraulic arms and augers.
That’s how comedies begin
in backyard pastures too dry to irrigate,
visits by servicemen scouting work orders,
asking if the dog bites: “Sometimes.”
The faucet crushed beneath a tire
while we were gone to Bakersfield
trading goosenecks before we wean—
the white geyser and phone call
asking where to turn the water off:
“The pump.” On, after an easy faucet fix
at dusk, but no water to the house,
you found the gate valve stripped,
one last twist that did not quell
the fountain wasting in a drought
with the gopher snake they killed.
Innocence, fear, the tracks were clear.
We cut and plumbed another gate valve,
used once and saved like farmers do,
you and I and the mosquitoes
on our bellies in the mud with wrenches
after the inch-and-a-half Dayton blew
three times under pressure. Face-to-face,
a wrench apiece, the coupler between us
the fourth time tightened to hold
forever in my mind, our wet and muddy
partnership, laughing: “Welcome home.”

 

AFTER AWHILE

 

                        You others, we the very old have a country.
                        A passport costs everything there is.

                              – William Stafford (“Waiting in Line”)

Circles mapped to save steps on sure ground,
well-worn routine from barn to mangers,
feed and irrigate with the right tools

to mend our presence along the way—few
loose pages nowadays, at the ready—gathers
to brand and wean replayed, filed by pasture.

I remember the old dogs refreshing scent posts
in the last of the light before they slept
into forever, and all the old horses in the dark

nosing buckets trying to bring the sun—
and my father’s careful words, after awhile,
you have to get used to not being first in line.

 

VAPOR

 

March 14, 2014

 

Awakened slowly,
drinking promises of rain
with people on time.

 

 

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DAMP WIND

 

When the wind blows up canyon,
first light gray,
I am the old red horse,
twenty-five, bucking in place.

We never loose it, that wanting
stirred and satisfied—
to be wild again
when everything is right.

We feel his feeble effort,
hooves barely off the ground,
our whoops and cheers
howling on a damp wind.

 

THE TROUBLE WITH SHARING

 

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Hole in the orchard filled
with leaky water troughs
of asparagus rockets

breaking free. We felled
the cherry tree the borers killed,
corded-up for winter fires.

We shared the crop,
top branches first
we couldn’t reach until

word got out and left us
pits. Damn Orioles
and their bucket mouths.

 

HOUSE SPARROWS

 

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Since the bird feeders, the House Sparrows
have run the finches off the beam,
scattered their nest, spending mornings

rebuilding for a week. The male helps,
but would rather fluff his feathers
in the warm first light and supervise.

He packs little twigs and she dry weeds,
long streamers trailing her fluttering
balancing act, treading air before ascending.

Saying nothing, we see ourselves
in these silhouettes, satisfied
and pleased to entertain the gods.

 

OLD MEN WHITTLING

 

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I had forgotten small minds
of old men whining,
the Sisyphus among us

whittling clever epithets,
quivers-full of poisoned-tipped
displeasures flung

at the centers of open hearts
in full bloom
I had not yet seen.

                                     for Curtis

 

GOOD MEDICINE

 

When we gathered this earth,
found its splendid secrets
flourishing, full with flavor,

we believed we had favor
with the gods we acknowledged
everyday—good medicine.

And when we hunted, we learned
to leave our flesh, fill the tracks
before us and read the mind

that left them. It was easy then
to be outside ourselves
to love another, escape together,

go beyond the bounds
of flesh and return
with good medicine.

 

Replacement Heifers

 
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With an eye towards weaning our calves, last week’s tour of the Greasy watershed to check cattle and feed conditions was a pleasant surprise. Typically we begin weaning in mid-May when the grass turns. With less than 0.75” of rain in the last forty-five days, my expectations were minimal. But our upper country above 1,500 feet has fared substantially better than our lower foothills where only patches of green remain high on the north slopes.

Having reduced our cow numbers by 40% due to the ongoing drought, we have found a temporary equilibrium between grass and cattle without having to feed much hay last winter. But due to feed limitations, we were unable to keep any calves last season for replacement heifers. Assuming a return to more normal weather conditions, we will need to replace our older cows while also trying to add numbers to our cowherd. However many heifer calves we’re able to keep, won’t produce a calf to wean for two more years. Rebuilding a cowherd is a slow process. Certainly the three girls above will be candidates, but how many we’re able to keep remains to be seen.

 

OTHER INTERESTED PARTIES

 

I think no more or less of you
than when you lived
alone hoarding memories,

long life collecting guns
and knives in the Berkeley hills.
Only with plastic yellow ribbon

stretched across Tanglewood
can we share a last laugh:
bomb squad extricating

your volatile black powder,
old ammunition and grenades
from the backyard bunker,

neighbors at windows, and you
gleefully grinning down upon
the commotion you’ve stirred.

Stanford, Harvard law, Bohemian
Club, without issue you enjoyed
the luxury of eccentricities

far from your mother’s dirt—
or her father’s, the Judge
in the barn with his jug.

All we really wanted
were the stories, first cousins
once removed in life and death.