Posted in Photographs, Ranch Journal
Tagged Drought, Dry Creek, photographs, water, weather, Wordless Wednesday
1.
After the flood of holiday cheer
and four black and frosty mornings
into the New Year, I have lost track
of the names of days
celebrating work:
friends gathered,
calves branded,
meat fired
and bottles emptied—
the hugs and handshakes
of neighbors, persistent
habits etched deeper
in the hard ground
worn around our eyes—
deeper yet into souls,
our pupils as pinholes
to grand landscapes
either side, missed
by the migratory headed
somewhere up the road.
2.
We live within a dot on the map,
a speck of dust on a spinning globe
in space and time without end,
holding firm to our moment,
looking back and ahead at once:
no finish line in sight.
3.
We pace our plodding, take all week
to get the work done, to savor details
of small accomplishment in a hazy
scheme of keeping track of seasons
shaped by rain, or lack of it—
our spiritual sustenance comes
with the crescendo of storms
we pray for, almost everyday, keeping
busy while we wait for an answer.
4.
In the winter, we invest in the future
measured by firewood stacked outside
the door, like last year’s crop of acorns
stored by natives, wild and domestic,
we are prepared in this place
to loose track of days scattered
like native cattle into strays
chasing the good grass back home.
If it is Apollo’s steeds chomping at silver bits
I hear behind the ridge, eager to tow the sun,
bring the light like any other day, the future
to this cold, dark canyon—the last of the old load
of days to be dropped off before the New Year—
I’m ready early, hacking my last goodbyes
on paper, screening blessings from the dust
and drought behind me, I trust, having measured-up
to something I can’t see, head bowed, dragging
my feet in yesterday. We must lean into our collars,
move the wheel into new country, scatter virtue
like vigorous seed and hope for a bumper crop.
Posted in Poems 2014, Ranch Journal
Tagged 2014, Drought, Dry Creek, New Year, poetry, rain, water, weather, wildflowers, wildlife
Blue Oak rounds too big for the woodstove
collect near the splitter in a pile—energy
stored in rings of sun, years of rain—
the severed dead, hard and dry inside.
We look ahead to ceremony, prepare
as we go, set aside the burls and forks,
too twisted to split, for the outside fire
and generations of flickering faces.
I see my mother in my grand-daughter’s
eyes, leave us for a moment for the flames
lapping the remains of a stump—the call
from beyond that burns within us all—
she is drawn away. It is the coming back
to her mother’s lap, her bemused recognition
of going somewhere within white coals
beyond this half-circle of family
that I see my mother in her face
while the meat cooks. We talk, lift glasses
in the smoke that swirls undecidedly
around us, just out of reach of the flames.
Early tracks upon the morning frost,
someone will rise to stir the embers,
to rekindle conversation from cold night
hoping to keep the celebration alive.
Posted in Photographs, Poems 2014
Tagged celebration, Ceremony, Christmas, Drought, Dry Creek, Fire, photographs, poetry, rain, water, weather, weekly-photo-challenge
She breathes, her flesh
with hair enough to hold cattle
and rain to her breast
should it come hard and fast
to fill the canyons. Gray clouds
linger with nothing left
but to offer color and contrast
to these hills greening yet
in Christmas Day’s last light.
Black from the bottoms,
sunset’s shadow crawls
to an island lit with rosy hues
dotted with the dark silhouettes
of cows and calves grazing
the iridescence of fresh green.
She breathes, her flesh
with hair enough to hold us close
to her soft breast.
We are blessed this Christmas with the gift of grass after thirty-plus months of historic drought in California, with extraordinary conditions beginning with a 1.76” warm, slow rain at the first of November followed by a thick germination of feed and warm growing weather, and just enough rain to keep it alive until the 2.5” storm two weeks ago. We have good feed now and the calves are growing quickly—from one extreme to the other, a magnificent start to our grass season. Still getting comfortable with the color green, with wet weather, we are grateful and relieved. These hills are miraculously resilient!
And we truly appreciate you and the 400+ others who have followed this blog and endured the drought with us—the recent dusty poems and photographs that are recorded here—and took the time to leave encouraging and sympathetic comments. Thank you all.
Robbin and I wish you a Merry Christmas as the year unwinds, hoping for peace and understanding among all men as we begin 2015, another opportunity to find that common strand within each of us to share. From our family to yours: MERRY CHRISTMAS & HAPPY NEW YEAR ☺
Posted in Photographs, Ranch Journal
Tagged Calves, cows, Drought, Dry Creek, Merry Christmas, photographs, water, weather
We start with trails
that haven’t changed
near the top of the world—
switchbacks stacked
in scree
to gaps between
bare peaks like teeth
above the timberline
chewing at the blue,
blue sky
and the solitude
waiting in ambush
to welcome you home
to rainbow trout
now spawning,
green backs packed
in the leak
of a snowmelt lake
where white clouds
float upon water.
Alone in the smear
of starlight falling
upon solid rock,
it glows
like a lantern.
We start with trails
we know
how to get there.
for Lee and Earl
Posted in Photographs, Poems 2014
Tagged backcountry, Great Western Divide, Kaweah, Paregien Ranch, photographs, poetry, Sawtooth Peak, snowmelt, solitude, trout, water, weather
Snow up-canyon, dull green slopes on ashen
skies. With a few clear angels, tiny lights
dim and blink independently on the bare
Red Bud wrapped from last year’s Christmas,
before dawn. Leftovers after drought that
you can see from the road at night, singing
‘we’re still alive—’. Coming back to myself,
a black bull grumbles across the dry creek bed,
listening for the whereabouts of an answer.
First light prolonged at Winter Solstice that
I could not imagine waiting for us—I am
surprised with silence of this new beginning.
Posted in Photographs, Poems 2014, Ranch Journal
Tagged Christmas lights, Drought, Dry Creek, photographs, poetry, rain, Red Bud, water, weather, weekly-photo-challenge, Winter Solstice
‘Traveling the same track
makes ruts when it rains,’
I tell myself, shoveling,
bringing future runoff back
to gutters and culverts
as if I might make a difference.
They hear me in their home
and come to the chainsaw’s whine
limbing a fallen tree on the fence—
old wire that can be spliced
and pulled up into place
only they will see, gathered
in rock piles above me
like Great Aunts, lifting
wet noses to a light breeze.
I left the house with salt
to see the cattle, check
the rain gauge, photograph
the grass ‘lest my memory slips
again and spins a yearning
into some other poem
for Winter Solstice 2014.
We are family, these cows
and calves, this wild about me
as I stack brush for quail
before I leave with Live Oak
limbs—come home with wood.
From dull light into the dark, we
will roast a rib between us warm
‘round our never-ending fire.
Posted in Photographs, Poems 2014, Ranch Journal
Tagged Calves, cows, Drought, family, Fire, Greasy Creek, photographs, poetry, rain, Spanish Flats, water, weather, wildlife
Dear Paul, I’m not saying it’s over,
one never knows about the bigger picture,
but it’s rained and green and we got mud
instead of dust in the house for Christmas,
puddles in the garden. We learned a lot—
this blessing of basics disguised as disaster
made us tough, cold and calloused
as we tried to grin the bear down,
make friends with our dry realities.
(We’ll never run the ranch the same.)
I can write you now with more
than more bad news to add
to your rants to the outside world—
O’ Humanity, look
what we’ve become:
slaughtering children in school,
buckling under to cyber blackmail,
while Wall Street goes up over 400
and Congress smokes Cuban cigars.
We learned to retreat, keep our heads down
and ‘let them play’ as we searched for water,
fed cows to keep our future alive.
Are these not Jeffers’ ‘new values’,
the most basic this world has forgotten?
Hands-on people—we like the smell
of sweat, the sound of words and the feel
of accomplishment, day by day—it’s all
we have to share. Hoping to rekindle
our correspondence, I wish you, Liz
and Zeke some super-duper holidays.
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THE BLOODY SIRE
It is not bad. Let them play.
Let the guns bark and the bombing-plane
Speak his prodigious blasphemies.
It is not bad, it is high time,
Stark violence is still the sire of all the world’s values.
What but the wolf’s tooth whittled so fine
The fleet limbs of the antelope?
What but fear winged the birds, and hunger
Jewelled with such eyes the great goshawk’s head?
Violence has been the sire of all the world’s values.
Who would remember Helen’s face
Lacking the terrible halo of spears?
Who formed Christ but Herod and Caesar,
The cruel and bloody victories of Caesar?
Violence, the bloody sire of all the world’s values.
Never weep, let them play,
Old violence is not too old to beget new values.
-Robinson Jeffers
Posted in Poems 2014, Ranch Journal
Tagged Drought, Dry Creek, Paul Zarzyski, poetry, rain, water, weather