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EYE

                        I know for a while again
                        the health of self forgetfulness,

                                – Wendell Berry (“Sabbaths 2000, V”)

Call it ‘eye’, if you will,
that desperate search for notches
and niches apart from the self

that beckon, and sometimes beg—
but often ambush us with awe
to behold, to become so small

that we forget what we have created
within this heavy flesh just
to consume and survive our appetites

for a short time. Only the desperate
have it, the lucky ones looking
beyond man’s crude creations

our children must learn to live with.
I die a little each time I’m overtaken
to let the mind go at these thresholds

and somehow think that I can
preserve and frame the moment
in a photograph or poem.

                                                for Wendell Berry

 

 

 

Sabbaths 2000, V

SHADE

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Comfortable in shadows
no one rises
when I enter their room.

 

 

WIND UNDER MY SKIN

I stumble on Bukowski early in the dark
morning, pleased to hear him voice
basic town stuff from the other side

of the page, but glad he’s not been
riding shotgun through this drought,
cussing everyone including God.

We hung a little hope on the gray
rolling in, gathering on the ridges—
on gusts stirring up, then down canyon

and grinned like foolish children
who still believed in weathermen
and Santa Claus. We dreamed

of how much rain it would take
to fill all the new cracks in clay
where the thin grass fades—

of an errant thunderstorm
that could fill the dirt tanks
and let the creek run

enough to meander and pool
under canopies of sycamores and oaks
for the Wood Ducks, cattle and us.

Through the black screen door,
wind under my skin,
I hear it begin to rain.

THIS SIDE OF A DRY RIVER

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Short green turns under
clear skies, no place to hide
rocks and cattle grazing.

 

March 29, 2009

March 29, 2009

ALL THE POETRY

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Anisocoma acaulis

 

All the poetry
out of dark closets
spread like dandelion seed

on a gust, pages floating
to fertile landings
in the disturbed ground

to take root, unfold
each bud into a blaze
of flowers, and so on.

 

 

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WPC – Reflections of Rock (3)

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Rocks and trees remember
days between rains rising
to see how they looked

to an upside-down world,
watch hawks in the heavens
gliding beneath them.

 

 

weekly photo challenge

TOUGH COUNTRY

                  Wherever we looked the land would hold us up.
                        – William Stafford (“One Home”)

We have come back to rest upon the rock
we couldn’t move out of our heads—
you riding barefoot on a Kentucky

mule to town before I was born
to land here, young. He raised us both
after the war that forever changed him,

and us—all of us close, and those close to us.
I tie those times to the underwater look
in old Mort’s eyes understanding more

than his bib-overalls could handle. Doc
Sweeney was no doctor, but said it best—
“He didn’t come back the same.”

Slow to move now, we never weakened—
grateful for the gravity that holds us up
to gather tough country in our sleep.

 

 

“One Home”

RANCH RAISED

Thin grass fades
like awakening from a dream
to truckloads of hay

like any other day
of no rain—like nothing
I have ever seen.

 

819 & twins

819 & twins

 

We realize the practical importance of documenting our drought, its impact on the ranch and cattle, on us. Even in dry times, our life is rich with details, most all symbolically tied to moments of truth, some of which last for a long time.

Denial can be a dangerous thing with so many lives at stake, so many cattle waiting for rain. But now I doubt a rain could help the south and west slopes of brown native clay.

As we branded the calves this winter, we culled the cows for those that had turned old and thin since we culled them last summer, most without calves, bringing them off the mountain to allow more feed for the remainder that is holding better in our granite upper-country. By the end of branding field-by-field, we had collected a truckload where we fed them hay on the irrigated pasture of only dormant summer grasses.

Clarence and Robbin trailed behind the bunch slowly following the Kubota with its single bale of hay, each cow eagerly filing past me as we got closer to the feed grounds and corrals as I assessed them, judging fullness and fitness—how they’d look in the auction ring. Moving closer, they began to buck, kick and run with excitement, with just the thought of hay.

In the corral, Robbin assured me that she didn’t see anyone she was sorry to see go. We brought the cameras that we forgot about while crowding the cows up the foreign loading chute, reserved primarily for our annual crop of calves. Now old replacement heifers, they’d never seen a truck. “You can tell,” said Van Beek, the driver, after the first two drafts, “they are ranch raised.”

 

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LIMBO

She survived Europe and World War II,
a Catholic spinster who spoke seven languages
and left my broken French a Polish accent

and a black notion of Purgatory, that limbo
all intelligent children should avoid.
Again, I’m horseback with a string of mules

somewhere between the chiseled granite trails
and mountain asphalt, that middle ground
with no names, high on a ridge, not quite

lost on the other side of a distant river,
looking for a trail. I must love it here
to come so often in my dreams.

                                        for Helen Cecilia Terry
                          December 28, 1897 – December 9, 1985

 

 

Photo: Phil & Beth Hutson

Visalia Cemetery Photo: Phil & Beth Hutson

SHADOWS OF TREES

Growing into ourselves
like the shadows of trees
leafless at dusk,

we become exaggerated
and unique with burls
for eyes and limbs

to reach beyond
our genetic root zones
as abstract art—

flat silhouettes
on a short green canvas
fading into seed

while the young oaks
all look the same
without character.

 

 

‘Aging the American Way’