Category Archives: Poems 2018

ANOTHER PURPOSE

 

 

Ants in the anthill, we feel the quake
of giant footfalls, cloven hooves
and rubber tread approaching, yet

stick to the business of our survival
unabashed, sorting the wild grain
packed by caravans for winter’s cold.

Our one mind is not cluttered
with news beyond our borders,
the fallen oak and swollen creek—

of all the peripheral shenanigans
delegated to orators and generals,
to pundits and playwrights busy

with dramatic scripts to entertain
themselves. We serve another purpose
dedicated to feeding ourselves.

 

VIOLENCE

 

 

                                                                                Why do we
                    invite the world’s rancors and agonies
                    Into our minds though walking in a wilderness?

                              – Robinson Jeffers (“Going to Horse Flats”)

All the props in place, the stage is ever-set
for calamities, for the struggles for power,
for deceit in scripts yet unwritten, but predictable.

                    Two Red Tails strafe a passing eagle
                    reluctantly retreating to a steep hillside
                    to stand his ground, claim his space

                    to face their withdrawal. We watch snakes
                    squeeze and swallow one another whole
                    as the bobcat waits upon the tailings of a burrow—

this world, and that beyond it, turns on violence
despite our protests, despite our compromises,
despite the logic of compassion to dissuade it long.

 

MOTHER’S DAY

 

 

Flash of tender bloom
for a single day each year
when we remember.

 

“Let the Mothers Decide to Make War”

 

EARLY SURVEILLANCE

 

 

When awaking barefoot in the dark,
we try to keep the reptiles out
of the house and our hazy dreams

knowing that if tree frogs can slip
through the cracks beneath our doors,
so might the snakes investigating

their whereabouts or ours. As early
surveillance from the underworld,
the Natives let the rattlesnake be—

to help keep everyone honest
by dispatching the evil among them.
Best be good, but keep your eyes peeled!

 

ANTI-EROSION

 

 

Killdeer spread their wings
over indentations in the crushed
gravel, over four speckled eggs

that look like granite washed
off the mountains and mined
from an ancient alluvium,

then hauled up the canyon
and spread like a blanket
in our driveway to keep

summer’s dust down
or getting stuck in winter’s
mud when it decides to rain.

Sometimes in the spring,
we mark them with a rock
to avoid lest we forget

little puffs on toothpicks
born on the run for bugs
and the cover of the creek.

 

 

FRIENDS OF THE FARMER

 

 

Half-a-dozen Great White Egrets
fly up the creek to light
in a sycamore to plot fishing

a slow pool for frogs and minnows—
pick their stations before
wading in from the cobbled shore.

None here when I was a boy,
they also hunt gophers, stand
like sentinels scattered in the pasture

with the Great Blue Herons
atop tailings from spring cleaning
waiting for movement to impale.

There are no borders south of here
where they come from, no racial
tension with so much else to do.

 

ORDINARY

 

 

                    It begins with your family
                    but soon it comes around to your soul.

                         – Leonard Cohen (“Sisters of Mercy”)

Bring on the sad songs hidden in my belfry,
free muffled desperation’s uncommon tone
to play beneath the trumpet’s discordant blasts

that lack melody or empathy for humanity.
Pilgrim in time, I crave moments with a moan—
minutes to reflect upon what my mind asks.

I need no enemy nor bugle’s call for reveille
to measure muscle, heart or brittle bone—
just a sad song to hum to the ordinary tasks.

 

HORSES AT THE FENCE

 

 

It may be a softening that comes with age, with lots of time among animals reading their thoughts as they try to read mine, my body language not near as brusque as when I was younger, eager to get the job done. Whether palpating cows or processing calves, I’ve always dreaded the rattle and bang of the squeeze chute as the animal strains against the procedure, one after the other like an assembly line until the lead-up is empty.

As a crew, we work well together, find our rhythmic pace as vaccinations, electronic ID tags and dewormers are applied. Having to use an old squeeze chute for half of our Wagyu X calves this year, it was easy to compare it to our relatively new hydraulic squeeze, the latter designed to be much easier on both man and beast.

The animal’s approach to the old chute is usually hard and fast, hitting the head gate abruptly, banging shoulders and brisket before squeezed manually, hooves often thrashing. Though our hydraulic Silencer was considerably more expensive, cattle enter it more quietly before their heads are caught, shoulders against the padded headgate, and they seem comforted, more apt to stand docilely. All these years, it has been the old chutes, the rattle and bang and all that they imply that I have dreaded most—the Silencer is well-named.

We finished processing our Wagyu X calves yesterday, the first load ready to ship on the 10th. The horses seem to enjoy watching us work, waiting, while we are waiting to give cows and calves time to find one another and relax before turning them out, to head home.

 

Some born late, but
no leppy calves due
to lack of mothering,

I want to throw
my chest out as if
I was the Wagyu sire

as they wait for shots,
a second-round of vaccinations
and EID tags destined

for more feed, for high-dollar
plates all around the world
pending its politics.

 

INNOCENCE OF DIRT

 

 

Like motley soldiers, we lived the dust,
the harvest heat, grape lugs swamped
and in the barn before the storm—gray

curtains looming in the west bringing steam,
mildew, rot and decay to a crop of grapes.
Right after the war, we were born to be bent

to discipline, small army of many hands
like locusts up and down the vine rows,
dollar an hour, until we stripped them clean.

We knew no better, I suspect, of town life,
all the trouble we could find to try,
become forever changed if not careful.

Could we go back having tasted luxuries
of dreams we never had, could we endure
what we have learned about ourselves

since? Clinging to our lungs and flesh,
we will always breathe heroic days
closer to the innocence of dirt.

 

HORNED GRAY COW

 

 

We may be the gods
in a cow’s short life
of few interruptions:

water, shade to grazing
day after day, calf after calf—
we appear when needed

most with hay, a taste
to insure devotion. Horn
in her head, she remembers

the relief, the chute, the saw,
that assuaged the pain.
She prays for our arrival.