Author Archives: John

WAITING AT THE GATE

Snow tomorrow, clouds low, wind bites
high on the mountain, on the Homer,
south side of Remy Gap. Cinch-up,

big calves. Black cows crowd the gate
for each four-hundred pound baby
to escape ropes and smoke, horses and

men before the storm – to find her close,
waiting to go back to steep home in the
hollows of brush and rock, seeps of water

ponded, to look straight-down on town,
river, and the mesmerizing highway where
cars trail up and down like ants towards

unknown purpose steadily. Shed
cumbersome coat sleeves, build and swing,
loosen-up right humerus and clavicle.

I was the young man here, once upon a time –
never thought it’d last – never thought
I’d ever weaken, choose slow instead of fast.

                                           – for Brent Huntington

LATE FEBRUARY

Talking snow in California,
most calves branded, cows
milking heavy on the green,

we look ahead to spring’s
tall feed, hills painted
in flowers, everything

they offer in heaven, yet
it all depends on half-inch
rains, every three weeks

‘til the end of April –
a hundred pounds away
from doing it over again.

It’s supposed to be a business,
but bulls stray and take out
fences, leave work at home.

Then one year in five, the rain
forgets where we live, coming
down to the next sixty days.

VISITING THE FUTURE

Early afternoon on the
way up the mountain,
the past phones ahead – says
she is Margaret, my dead
mother. Are we
too busy for a visit?

We can start anywhere,
hollering hellos and goddamn
profanities as pickup doors
fly open to handshakes and
hugs. How long has it been?

Mule packers, horse lovers
wearing outdoor eyes –
who’ve caught God
drooling at his easel
on every horizon, every
turn of King’s Canyon,
Rio de los Santos Reyes,

guffaw at our little bit
of Crown and Jack, got
one in the truck
, want
nothing, but help speed
the recycling of glass
– unscrew new jugs
to a list of things to do
before dark, up the hill
and narrow road, nearly
empty weekdays without
the caravans of Christians
and 4-wheel drive crazies
racing towards heaven.

We catch up with highlights
of kids and grandkids,
weddings and fencing jobs,
pick fruit, swap books
and make promises to
rivers of fish, to the future
trails we will cross.

                                – for Tim & Maggie

JUST RIGHT!

                        Scrambling through loose rocks
                        On an old trail
                        All of a summer’s day.

                                    – Gary Snyder (“Milton by Firelight”)

What better place to read
than by firelight, each word
flickering into the next.

Slow progress in the harsh
landscapes of our mind’s
eye, to linger there and read

Snyder aloud to friends
around white coals, shadows
and sound, starlit night.

It happens then, the wind
in pines, off edges of granite,
the bell mare and coyote

interrupting lines,
feeling poetic
just at the right time.

LEFTOVERS

Rifle asleep in its case under the seat,
he reads me through the windshield –
winter coat at dawn alone, calves

too big to bring him down – now,
squirrel towns busy cleaning burrows
after rain. Free in February to fill

the seams, he reinvents our deserted
homesteads as we move closer to more
comfort and speed – front door jam

his scent post, our rusty bucket, home
for mice. He lopes the other way,
laughs over his shoulder, going back.

NO POETRY TODAY

Dark, about to rain
(confirmed on NOAA) –
there is no poetry today,

no sweet metaphors left
on the watermelon wagon
as we bump along.

Instead, I listen for
the whir of early drops
upon the roof, ready

to fall into a long sigh
and broadleaf grin,
too edgy now to write.

The grass will come
on stronger, hold ‘til
the Ides of March –

until another, hopefully.
It’s dark, about to rain
buckets-full, they say,

promising for a week.
Slow arriving, late to stay
awhile, or miss these

gray south slopes
altogether – you
never know in California.

TO BRAND CALVES

Only now, does she allow entry
up Ridenhour as dawn glints
off goosenecks through bare oaks

below, rumbling of aluminum –
saddle horses brace the rutted cut
after weeks of rain, month of sun

on the steep, south slope – small
poppies first to rise in welcome
to her refurbished hall, narrow

draw with water pooled to fall
off boulders beneath nearly-naked
buckeyes posed: green feathers

upon gray fingertips. We drink
deeply and hold our breath,
climbing higher to brand calves.

The Nature of Springs

Good gather yesterday, branding calves this morning at the Paregien Ranch before the forecast rain.

While making a last circle in the Kubota, I had to stop to photograph the red lichen here at Windmill Spring, headwaters of Ridenhour Creek that contributes to Dry Creek, a mile and 1,500 feet down the canyon. There used to be a hand-dug well and windmill here, the latter disassembled and sold down the hill by a previous lessee, the former filled-in to keep cattle out. Good, dependable water, nevertheless.

Though I have no explanation, scientific or otherwise – lichen this red is rare around here – worth observing, occurring only one other place that I’m aware of at Effie’s (Hilliard) Spring on the Antelope Valley side of the Paregien Ranch, a stone’s throw from Wuknaw, the Creation Place for the Yokuts according to Frank Latta. And like any place with good water, there are native grinding holes atop these rocks.

With ample wonder and speculation, the stories come easily.

VALENTINE

She woke on the edge of a clear stream and made her way to a mansion built on pillars of gold, whose silver walls glowed like a lantern in the sun. She ventured inside to find floors of precious stones, rooms of treasure and art, and comforting voices that she could hear but not see that invited her to dine, to bathe, to sleep, and to enjoy every imaginable comfort. She fell asleep to a chorus of angels, accompanied by a harp. – Teresa Jordan, (“Cupid: The Soap Opera”) http://www.yearoflivingvirtuously.com/?p=1649

VALENTINE

‘Tis Cupid come in darkness
to dance in dreams, dear Psyche –
how we yearn like children

to unlock deep chests,
to comfort and confirm
our richest vulnerabilities,

our nakedness in the light.
O’ to be so simply mortal
is the envy of all the gods!

HOPE IS IN THE MOMENT

We are cast of stone, all kinds,
no two the same, amalgamations
worn by time’s erosion, by

wind, sun and rain – warming,
soothing, eating away towards
the core of our ultimate humility.

Even the lofty falcon’s perch,
gray-haired, exfoliates into the sea,
the Sierra’s teeth crumbling and

the cobble found to fit a hand
are finally sand, gravel for highways,
particles of dust stirred and inhaled

as strangers remembered, carried
in our chests. What do the eyes
truly see, searching for that mystic

connection of great and small, those
depths we explore where details meet
and fall in love, or lust, or like –

or as we gird for battle? Here,
in that moment there is no time
to relive the past or dream of some

future futility. The real action churns
with it all at once, in the current
like a river rushing, pooling, soaking

richly within us, before moving on.