RELIABLE FRIENDS

                              …close, reliable friends
                              in the earth, in the air, in the rock.

                                 – William Stafford (“Father’s Voice”)

Go hear the voices echo
from common ground, watch
metaphors unfold, alone –
and close like petals, day after day
before they die to scatter, ripe seed
for rains, months or years away.

Tom Homer got the credit
each time my father said,
He looks, but just don’t see…

                              a nod or intonation
                              after years of repetition
                              planted in our brains
                              as a landmark to go by

whether riding fence for wages
or surviving the future – each twisted limb
has something sure to say.

Among them, there are no lies.
Deception and miscalculation, yes –
but all the truth that has endured
our wild imagination is still alive.

HARRY

Runt of the litter, long-haired gray tom
that will never make it here, bent tail
riding parallel beside him, you plugged

into whoever’d take him –
now whines high on a log end
beneath the gutter in the rain, alone
disgruntled with the weather.

His family has abandoned him again –
not even the dogs are interested
in a stare down, each meow complains.

OUR TIME

There is no mistake that we are here
to work together, to hold the fragile in
abeyance and focus on routines we know –

to care with sure and calloused hands
and sort unspoken grief to unseen pens
to haul home like our own stray cattle

when it’s done. Scattered by distance
apart from the world and its tragic
consequences – its sad ambitions

and addictions – we come to celebrate
and revere our skills with the unpredictable
and rise to persevere as one. Sometimes

the heart, or is it the soul that shudders,
or is it the moon at its perigee that pulls
emotions up like swirling tides around us

that we dare not speak for fear of hearing
our own voice quake? Is it age worn thin?
We work around raw and tender parts,

find new ways to hold our rope and rein
until time heals the hole in each of us –
neighbors for a long time – it is our time.

WHITE FEATHER

The branding pictures show gray
on most of my face, translucent quill
of Great White Egret stabbed

into the band of a worn black hat
among the young men – boys really,
full of it – all that tension stretched

like calves between horses and saddle
horns, turned loose to find its way.
Mostly, I forget – wing feather streaming

jauntily – an oxymoron on creaking knees
overlooked as another evolving casualty.
Like your bouquet of turkey feathers

we collected, scattered in the grass,
reunited in a living room vase after
a frantic death, each new feather

becomes a sign of surviving friction
in my mind – a prolonged life worn
with respect and envy for flight.

PORTRAITS

How he had hoped his words might
turn a smile, eyes cast down to rise
and meet somewhere beyond

with something new to share. But
she hid her face behind her hand
instead – as he stared off, pursing

lips into a silent whistle, picturing
it all again, replaying and weighing
each enunciation, wondering why

space between their horses grew.
Portraits, not wide-looped long-shots,
but up-close expression zoomed

across the pen through loose reins, tight
ropes and smoke to the peripheral asides –
faces to later read between the lines.

February 6, 2011

Thank God for the Weather!

After another all-night rain, the creek is up and snow low enough to close the Grapevine, the Interstate between the San Joaquin Valley and L.A., and Deadwood, the steep and curvy stretch falling-off into Oakhurst where Robbin’s brother operates a snowplow for Cal-Trans. Also Priest Valley, CA 198 & 25 west of Coalinga in the Coast Range is closed. No surprise that a chunk of Highway 1 through Big Sur lies in the Pacific. 1.68 inches of rain in the past 24 hours, 2.22 inches in the last 3 days, and still raining, clouds hanging below Sulphur Peak at 3,000 feet, our ground has not dried out since the middle of last December and more rain forecast for the next ten days.

Gray, we’re sequestered inside once again as the late-month pattern repeats itself, the garden half-tilled with implements waiting, standing, planted ready in wet soil. Weeds on the periphery are making a comeback where I sprayed a few months ago. Getting off the asphalt, Dry Creek Road, with a pickup is a non-productive option, and crossing the muddy creek I can see from my desk this morning would be foolhardy.

Getting Kenny and Virginia’s calves branded Friday instead of Saturday looks like genius now, and apparently their ‘bulls too big to brand’ and hauled to town instead brought good money. We’ve got damn little to complain about and thrilled to have something other than world politics to discuss.

Thank God for the Weather! I have my desk to clean-up that after tax accounting, endless mail and disheveled stacks of books that looks like a junk yard – stuff I know is there, somewhere, but I can’t possibly find. Plenty to do as we await T-storms this afternoon that threaten the Valley’s deciduous fruit and nut trees in bloom – peaches, plums, nectarines and almonds especially vulnerable. Obviously the planet’s in revolt, reacting to something big. Our hillsides are oozing, moving with the weight of water, I suspect – nothing to do but wait, because we’ve seen nothing yet.

Gallery

More McKee Branding …as it rains

This gallery contains 12 photos.

With more visits than ever, we’ve found more photos: © Robbin Dofflemyer 2011

AT HOME

Bless these hills that lend perspective,
teach gravity and train the eye to look
upwards to find horizons truly blue

above black dots of Angus pairs, grazing
as they grade emerald grass between
the oak trees clinging like whiskers

to every crease in their faces – home
a hundred years, it seems, centuries
inhabited by a few who still linger near

old slabs of stone. A man can hide,
grow deaf to the din and stay – busy
as Sisyphus with his rock, or not –

most accomplishment erased by storms
that have worn them smooth and
exposed their crumbling, granite bones.

These hills that embrace in the rain,
holding humble ready as we age
to wear with them, as well as we can.

McKee Branding

We got a last minute call from Kenny & Virginia to brand their calves before it rained. They’d been gathering Woolly Canyon for three days, one in the rain, hoping to brand Saturday, but with a week of forecast rain ahead, went Friday instead. Plenty of big calves under less than optimal conditions, I was pleased to be in the same pen with so many young and capable cowboys. Somehow, Robbin got some photos taken between vaccinating calves. It was, of course, heartening to see Jeff and Alie again – one more special day with our neighbors!

© 2011 Robbin Dofflemyer

MORE

                             In the name of more we destroy
                             for coal the mountain and its forest
                             and so choose the insatiable flame.

                                          – Wendell Berry (“2008”)

It is the lazy nature of our dreams, wanting
that which we conceive – we float on lakes rising
while islands sink, despite repeated dawnings

and better sense. The hawk remodels his high nest
of twigs when the leaves come, refines efficiency
with practice – talon and beak to soar and feed

generations. He has his place in sycamores
along the creek – a Red Tail pair, chests bared
to winter sun when we hay horses waiting.

Do they, from the cold, bare branch, dream
of warm domesticity and dependence, a store
of gophers or wealth of squirrels, or do they

find us curious? The blueprints and templates
to gather plenty have endured, yet we feed
our future to the insatiable flame in our mind.