
With so many holes in my memory
what remains seems like yesterday.
I jettisoned the shameful first,
then turned the irrational loose
to make room for the moment
before it slips away.

With so many holes in my memory
what remains seems like yesterday.
I jettisoned the shameful first,
then turned the irrational loose
to make room for the moment
before it slips away.
Posted in Photographs, Poems 2024, poetry, Ranch Journal
Tagged Cord McKee, memory, moment, photography, poetry

WINDOW GLASS
This to a man with neither courage, brain,
nor heart to find his way back home again.
– B. H. Fairchild (“The Second Annual
Wizard of Oz Reunion in Liberal, Kansas”)
I catch glimpses of faces reflected in windows
this side of the mountains the birds mistake
for open space—beak first limp upon the redwood
deck. Bell rung, we set them upright and wait
as most come back to life. I claw my memory,
open it like garden soil for names to nurture
at the damnedest times of day or night dreams
as the bird flies off. Nothing’s quite connected, yet
familiar as my grandmother’s vegetable beef
soup steaming on the electric coil
that blistered my hand red. My aunt would talk
politics back in the Watergate Days, swear
by Nixon, then take my side of the debate
between spoonfuls, beckoning me
from the other side of the window glass.
for Sean Sexton
Posted in Photographs, POEMS 2023, poetry

Yesteryear calls out of the blue
in these piebald canyons turning brown
yawning across a shrinking creek
to leave a confidential message—
not in words, but deeds. Faces,
always faces. Big George Hubble
in grade school who loaned me a dime
for a lemon bar popsicle
I never paid back. Some call
from out of the ground
that I never knew had gone on
to find their relief.
Some faces leave no names,
or none I can remember,
to console me as I did them
during the paisley days of a jungle war
I missed for a football knee
trying to be a hero.
Posted in Photographs, Poems 2022
Tagged fate, memory, old days, photography, poetry, Viet Nam War, weather