
Short-stemmed wildflowers
attempt to act normal, draw
eyes from bare hillsides.

Swirl of savage sunsets,
Swirl of the dead
Somehow, still living.
– Adrian Louis (“Degrees of Drought”)
Bribed with little water,
we have enticed Redbuds
to brighten our gardens
with cardinal colors
regardless of rainfall
before they leave
green hearts in spring.
Even the bare hills
sigh and grin relieved
for the living, love us
for our generous nature
that keeps the wild alive
and close to our swirling
yearnings satisfied.
Posted in Photographs, Poems 2021, Ranch Journal
Tagged Adrian Louis, Drought, Redbuds, spring, water

Despite the welcome 1.5” of rain this month, bringing our total rainfall for the season on Dry Creek to a meager 6”, our grass is short and thin, especially on the south and west slopes of our lower foothill country. Unless we get some well-spaced rains in April, we will wean our calves early, probably weighing 50 lbs. lighter than usual. With limited stockwater and no dry feed to carry our cows through summer, fall and to an unknown beginning of our rainy season, we will have cull our cow herd deeply. A strong high pressure ridge, typical of La Niña, is blocking storm activity to California and the rest of the West. Furthermore, market returns for cattle producers are stuck in an unsustainable range, in part due to Covid-19.
After a wonderfully fun day helping Kenny and Virginia McKee brand their calves in Woolley Canyon yesterday, Robbin and I are moving slowly as we recuperate by enjoying the colors of spring in the gathering fields around us. The lush appearance of the Fiddleneck and Popcorn Flowers in the photo below is deceptive as they have little nutritional value for cattle, but they do shade the ground and help hold what moisture we have.


This morning’s circle with salt and mineral for the first-calf heifers in the hills behind the house was not encouraging for the first of March. The south slopes are short and turning fast and the heifers want, and need, hay, though the calves look OK.
The forecasters have taken Saturday’s rain away, but next week still appears to be wet. We know that this ground is resilient, but with only March and April left as our only chance for real grass, this season’s future looks bleak and will probably require early weaning and a heavy culling of our cow herd, as there will be little old feed leftover to sustain these cows through summer and fall.
From an economic perspective, it costs around $500+ to keep our first and second calf heifers for a year, then add $400 for hay plus labor since August, an $850 calf won’t pencil out. Furthermore, with minimal snowpack and only four inches of rain this season, irrigation water will be expensive and the price for summer alfalfa high. Whether one believes in Climate Change or not, the trend for the last decade has been drought, (all across the West), the worst I’ve seen in my lifetime here, where losing money takes all the romance out of raising cattle. Nevertheless, we’re in it for the long haul and hope for the better days.
Posted in Photographs, Ranch Journal
Tagged climate change, Drought, economics, south slopes

When I was young I wished for longer springs and hillsides painted with wildflowers, grass belly-high and every canyon running water—livestock grazing pastoral notions, heavenly eternal. I may have to stand in line on the trail to mountain pastures when I shed this human coil, but hope to hell that the majority of souls will be waiting at the Pearly Gates instead.
Posted in Photographs, Poems 2021, Ranch Journal
Tagged choices and proclivities, grass, heaven, pearly gates, souls

We are extremely fortunate to have an excellent crew of neighbors to help us mark our calves. Yesterday was a beautiful day to brand our second bunch of Wagyu X calves, though pretty dusty near the end of the work. Even though the hills are green, the grass is terribly short with only 4.31” of rain on Dry Creek thus far this year with only two months left of our rainy season. Furthermore, the spring forecast https://weatherwest.com/archives/8382 is quite disturbing.
Feeding hay since August, some neighbors have already begun to sell their cows into this down market. Ideally, the cull cows will attain their heaviest weights by mid-April, however most everyone’s cows are now stressed as short feed and growing calves have kept them thin. With little rain and a minimal snowpack, summer irrigation water will be in short supply, which translates to higher water prices in the San Joaquin Valley. Likewise, one can be assured that with fewer cuttings, the price of hay will also be high.
The south slopes have already dried up, offering only a month of green this year. Without any moisture in the next week, the west slopes will follow suit. Not necessarily the amount of rain, but the timing is always the crucial variable for native feed. We carry on as if by some miracle we can keep our cows together, but time is running out for the Southern Sierra foothills.
Posted in Photographs, Ranch Journal
Tagged branding calves, climate change, Drought, dust, Wagyu X Calves

I know where the grass grows first, fresh and tender where raindrops linger above the road and creek below. I can feel wild spirits talk, dewless tracks where they walk, stepping lightly to lay beside me and my calf. From here we shed the claustrophobe of fence and gate, far away from the human race.
Posted in Photographs, Poems 2021, Ranch Journal
Tagged after rain, first grass, ridgetops, space and distance

Dark rain in waves, an oscillation of applause upon the roof that soothes and insulates the senses from the distant discord of mankind, the lucid transparency of public figures that saddens the soul— this narrow canyon lit across in gold, blind flashes of humility, the roll of thunder close. The short-cropped green hangs on to naked clay hoping for heaven’s basket of spilt miracles to soften hillsides for roots—and cloven hooves reaching for the ridgetops ripe for more level grazing. Dark rain in waves punctuated by the light— relief for what we know.
Posted in Photographs, Poems 2021, Ranch Journal
Tagged Allie & Audrey, cattle, Drought, girls, grass, hillsides, rain, ridgetops, Wagyu X branding

1. We feed on numbers, irrigate and harvest plans with shaved efficiencies, measure our well-being by more or less with what’s on paper so easily burned or suddenly erased— we forget who we are. 2. We share amounts of rain, compare numbers with the neighbors, too often disappointed with what we need most: just enough moisture to revive this ground— this flesh and our more common senses.
Posted in Photographs, Poems 2021, Ranch Journal
Tagged common senses, earth, flesh, rain, snow, Sulphur Peak, weather

This old ground is on the move and we have changed it with our dreams of improvement that humanity demands to level mountains, harness rivers, pump valleys to collapse with efficiency and startling success— then we foul our surgeries. Beyond the road and fences, these bare hillsides have begun to breathe since she spent the night, whispering upon dry leaves clinging to the last of life. I am awakened, as if she never left, wrapped in the soft applause of her arrival bringing the gentle miracle of moisture as this old ground comes back to life.