Category Archives: Poems 2011

WAITING FOR DAYLIGHT

No alarm clock here, we take turns
waking-up on the hour before the first
branding of the year, lists of implements,

food and vaccines checked in our sleep
before heading up the hill, leaving
convenience for the make-do miles

off the asphalt where anything can happen
despite best-laid plans. We should be
too old, too accustomed to this drill

to toss and turn—we should be sure
and secure with familiar faces and horses,
good hands and neighbors come to help,

like always. Grown old together, we
understand what we have lost—yet shake out
another loop just to grin into the sun.

SIDESHOW

Like try-outs for the lead,

                    it’s hard to tell
                    who’s not acting,
                    who’s not for real.

                    This cream risen:
                    American prime
                    hoofing down

                    the campaign trail—
                    another year
                    of non-sequitur,

                    closet embarrassments,
                    and hateful insults
                    to endure. Bad karma

                    for hard times, we hope
                    who pulls the strings
                    does not lose interest

in the play.

SWAMPERS

Headlights dancing down orchard rows,
silhouettes of men, half-loaded bob-tail
stuck in mud, getting oranges in
before the next rain and forecast freeze.

Unmuffled tractor groaning over shouts,
tight chain—there was no quittin’ time
around Christmas in those days, no room
for church or grammar school recitals:

God helped those who helped themselves,
who made hay while the sun shined.

It’s all we really knew of the world:
it took all year to raise a crop to sell.

Before non-cultivation, stinging nettles
high in a young boy’s face, I followed men
swamping field boxes into the night,
and couldn’t imagine a higher calling.

CLOUD WAVES

Forecasts vary, computer models change:
dry rain of fiery leaves, stirred and torn
from the honey locust tree, clouds waves

in all shades of gray—a dark flotilla
peeks over the ridge for ships run aground
against the Sierras leaking cargo low

as Blue Ridge trimmed with white ribbon.
We sip whiskey, replay the week and squeal
like children on each gust, tip our glasses

to the work got done. To herds of virgins
readied for the Wagyu bulls, gentle ladies
churning under a full moon. To the mothers

with first calves driven up canyon, now
grazing the north slopes as it tries to rain.
To the four we couldn’t find by day:

awakened by their bawling for babies,
night lit by the moon, they awaited
dawn at the gate while we slept easily.

OLD MEN

So much needs not to be said.
Old men grin with their eyes,
save breath with a look

of understanding, yet
the preachers, teachers and poets
go on and on, searching

for resonance, for the magic
words to open doors, when
all we need to do is look.

A COWBOY POEM

They think, see you carefully and read
your simple poetry as if an open window
to your mind. You must offer honesty,

kindly, find your rhythm on a hillside,
find grace and patience where there is
no hiding your intent so far away

from the corrals. This morning’s page:
steep—Blue Oaks thick on a north slope
slick and rocky where the grass has held

and drawn them, peppered dots of cows
and calves appear and disappear within
a raft of trees where they should be,

despite your sort of wets and drys,
despite the pens and alleys you try
to write around—they are content.

WITHOUT A DIME

Another game in the backroom, smoke
clouds a swinging lamp, wagers made
‘for’ and ‘against’ the whims of human nature
as dancing girls serve, and serve again

all over town for a dollar. We could be
the carcass on the table, flesh sliced thin,
honed steel a glint, they toil and angle
like bloody butchers trimming the best cuts

for themselves. Outside, pimps and barkers
watch the door, up and down the street,
pretend to be selective, pocket bribes
and whisper, ‘it’s the safest game in town.’

No tea cups here, no cloth napkins,
no silver candelabras holding flame—
the play is fast and furious, full of
promises, ‘you’ll never leave the same.’

Always gambling on the sunlight, on
the rain, the planet spins its own roulette:
hawks glide and rivers murmur to the wild
that’s left without a dime to its name.

Wagyu X Beef

Steer - August 5, 2010

Some slip the bunch,
miss appointments,
take leave with mothers

for greener pastures
or adventure, led
by the same threads

as we—the tug
and pull we trust
as special, as just

another way
to graze
what others miss.

Steer - October 15, 2011

Bull - October 15, 2011

The Wagyu X steer and his mother (937) showed-up in the pasture in which she was raised after the rest of the Wagyu calves were weaned and shipped in May of 2010. Likewise, the bull appeared with his mother in another pasture, having missed branding (though he got an iron as a yearling). We could have sold them in town with no premium, but we wanted to see what they might grow into and feed ourselves at the same time. The bull weighed 1,200 lbs., the steer, 1,100 lbs, when we started them on grain for 60 days—not the longer feeding régime as employed by Snake River Farms. Another experiment, Robbin and I have a half of each—the burger’s great, top sirloin tonight!

PROCLAIMING SPACE (rewrite)

                                        One day a heron walked
                                        up our front steps and looked
                                        into the front-door window.
                                        Was it a heron and also
                                        something else?

                                                            – Jim Harrison (“Suite of Unreason”)

Old white feed tank claimed by two
renegade racing pigeons on their way home
to stay and fill our sky with dozens, colored

wings glinting in unison. Once the heron’s
roost, our frozen totem facing north, up-canyon
at the head of the drive—our stoic gray sentry,

early on. Or the dependable silhouettes
of a pair of ravens, come evenings to listen
and lean like lovers, closer together until

they disappear at the water trough. Roadrunners
seem everywhere at once sprinting low on long legs
from barn to cactus, strolling the garden rows

like superintendents in tux and tails, also walk
the rail to peer in the window, or the mirror. One
never knows when curiosity might bring them

for closer inspection, for who does the choosing,
who studies whom? And what wide forces
have drawn us closer to proclaim our space?

                                        – for Laurie, Matthew and so many others
                                                 of the Kaweah River watershed.

PROCLAIMING SPACE

                                        Was it a heron and also
                                        something else?

                                                            – Jim Harrison (“Suite of Unreason”)

On long legs, one never knows
                    when curiosity
brings them closer
                    for inspection, if

the new pair—
                    replacing the ones
                    that disappeared,
that sprint low from barn to cactus,
or walk the rail, peering in

                    window
                    or mirror—

want something more,
strolling garden rows
like superintendents.
                    Roadrunners
everywhere at once!

Old white feed tank, a pair
of renegade racing pigeons
                    declare as theirs,
                    dozens like them, now
                    colors glinting in unison,

was once the heron’s roost,
our frozen totem facing north
                    up-canyon at the head
                    of the drive—
our stoic gray sentry

                    selected.

One never knows
who does the choosing,
                    what forces
                    draw us closer
to proclaim our space.

                                        – for Laurie, Matthew and so many others